Okay so maybe we have learned that the medication I was given for for pain after surgery last year just gives me TERRIBLE DREAMS and also does not do a lot for whatever is causing this particular pain
Onyx does not like to be on my bed because they don’t like unpredictable surfaces, but I woke up in the middle of the night, heart racing, breathing all over the place, with Onyx just hunched beside me, purring.
Favourite time of the year: Not winter, mostly? More spring and autumn than summer, because man I sweat and sunburn when I so much as glance outside.
Comfort foods: Mac and Cheese. Sour Patch Kids.
Do you collect anything: haaaaaaaaaaaaa 🙃 Dolls! Buttons/pins! Skeleton themed things! Actual bones! Vintage My Little Pony! Weird string lights! Plush cats! Keys! Stuff that is bright neon green! International versions of Disney songs and musicals! Mermaid colored nail polish apparently.
Favourite music artists: ⭐The Birthday Massacre⭐, KEIINO, MARINA, Shiny Toy Guns, Ruslana
Current favourite songs: It’s been months and still rocking Give That Wolf a Banana (about… what it says) and In Corpore Sano (about being a mentally ill artist with no health insurance and the beauty industry, among other things) from this year’s Eurovision.
Though if you spend enough time with me, I’ll end up making you listen to Ruslana’s Wild Dances, KEIINO’s Monument, The Birthday Massacre’s Video Kid, and How Much Is The Fish.
Favourite fics: I don’t really read any! I read a bunch like, a month ago, but that was the first stuff in years and years and years, hahaha. I did read a doujinshi I’m absolutely in love with recently, but for some reason it is hosted on a site that will probably obliterate people without a layer or five of ad blocking.
I think you both already tagged everyone I was gonna tag haha
I am so sick of only finding men on youtube talking about the stuff I love
I could go the rest of my life never again hearing a man talk about dolls or Sailor Moon or whatever it is today, fuck off, I’m so tired of you
from my zine “Some Non-Comprehensive Thoughts on Writing & Drawing & Today,” made during the France-New Brunswick Comic Artist Residency, with support from ArtsLinkNB, the AAAPNB, and the French Embassy in Canada.
this may not work for everyone, but the best advice i’ve ever heard was something like “if you’re struggling with something, make it easier.” that sounds like bullshit, but it actually helps me a lot.
i struggled to brush my teeth for years. i still do! but i made it easier for myself by paying attention to my needs. what kept me from brushing? part of it was the sensory experience, so i switched to an electric one and it works much better for me. part of it was having to stand in the bathroom for two minutes, so i moved my brush and toothpaste into my bedroom, where i lay or sit in bed and look at my phone while i use them. this didn’t solve the entire problem for me, but it made things so much easier.
i can’t stand having a shirt collar, so i wear mostly tank tops, but for the shirts i really like, i usually just cut the neck part out. yeah it’s not super pretty, so i keep some of my shirts uncut if i really like them for their look, but it helps for my every day clothes. (my mom taught me this one.)
showering and doing dishes are two things that make me want to die from boredom(? i don’t really have a term for that crushing boredom/dread of executive dysfunction and trauma responses). now i have a speaker for my shower and headphones for chores, and i just listen to music or podcasts. it makes things easier, even if it isn’t enough every time.
just. look at what you’re struggling with and think about what specific part is bothering you most. if there’s an easy fix, take it. even if it only makes things slightly more manageable, you deserve that. you deserve an easier way to do things that you struggle with. even if the solution seems silly or weird, is it hurting anyone? is it making anything worse? is it better to brush your teeth in bed or not at all?
You know, when I see fictional characters who repress all their emotions, they’re usually aloof and very blunt about keeping people at a distance, sometimes to an edgy degree—but what I don’t see nearly enough are the emotionally repressed characters who are just…mellow.
Think about it. In real life, the person that’s bottling up all their emotions is not the one that’s brooding in the corner and snaps at you for trying to befriend them. More often than not, it’s that friendly person in your circle who makes easy conversation with you, laughs with you, and listens and gives advice whenever you’re upset. But you never see them upset, in fact they seem to have endless patience for you and everything around them—and so you call them their friend, you trust them. And only after months of telling them all your secrets do you realize…
…they’ve never actually told you anything about themselves.
Adding onto this: characters who are so deeply repressed that they don’t even realize they’re not fine, or at the very least not supposed to be fine. Characters who do tell you about a situation they’re in that should be bad, but instantly laugh it off saying they can handle it (spoiler: they can, in fact, not handle it). Characters who laugh with you and listen to all your woes and much later you learn that they were actually going through something at least equally bad at the time, but they wave it off and don’t want to speak of it. Characters whose main coping mechanism seems to be “don’t think about it” on endless loop.
Basically, the fictional embodiment of the “this is fine” dog.
