If your conscience is bothering you, you should soothe it with the knowledge that you may have just saved the entire Alpha Quadrant. And all it cost was the life of one Romulan senator, one criminal, and the self-respect of one Starfleet officer. I don’t know about you, but I’d call that a bargain.
I’m really getting better at the ‘make things you like, even if you show them to no one’ thing! I’ve never been able to do that before, I always still had my mental shame passenger saying that people would still know that I made something stupid, or something sweet, or something that revealed too much, or some trope I’d been told was embarrassing and awful. And yet I did little things weekend with the most minimal of hang ups and I woke up this morning just boggling at how much stuff I suddenly felt free to make. Like I honestly sat back and felt a kind of wonder that so many things could just exist, that I could make them. For the first time in all the life I can remember, I made things without the feeling that someone inside my head was telling me it was all wrong and awful and I should be ashamed and definitely stop.
I think this was a combo of all the asexuality and fandom interaction, plus my homicides stuff, but Wow, this is really something.
Watching B5 is weird because if you’re on a season where Londo’s unlikeable you’re still surrounded by people who have finished the show who like him, so you’re all “wtf” for two seasons
It’s even worse if you’ve had him and G’Kar’s friendship spoiled for you (I imagine that was a shocking twist way back) so you’re like “they become friends wtf” for two seasons too
Right, like I’m at this point where I’m like, no, no, you can’t judge me for this until you finish the whole show… because then you won’t be judging anymore, you’ll be crying right along with me.
But while other people are in Not A Good Londo Land, I’m constantly thinking ‘Wow, you must think I am some special garbage.’
Damn, I missed my chance for lady handholding and frolicking! I’m the uncooperative character in the story who doesn’t do the one key thing you need someone to do in order to unlock the whole thing. Curses.
