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the tablet wire is split and super exposed and heating up really badly, this is so shitty. I can’t get it to stay on and it’s probably a fire hazard. Joy.
i should probably start researching a newer model.
ladyyatexel replied to your post “A lot of people in the B5 fandom came over from the DS9 one (me…”
I am really glad I am not seeing any of this ‘ugly’ stuff, but I feel like I’m not seeing anything period. Though I hope you’re not seeing any of my ‘ugh i ship this’ as having an ugly problem. It’s a lifelong shame anxiety about enjoying things :CThe ugly stuff comes up every once in a while for me, like the one time I had someone send me an ask on my unflatteringcaps sideblog saying something along the lines of “finding a flattering cap of Londo would be a challenge”
Feeling like you’re not seeing anything is a problem I had, too. There are occasionally new Londo/G’Kar fics every couple of months or so, but the fandom is still pretty small. I’m pretty sure that during 2010-2013, a lot of the old prominent fic writers left for different fandoms/left fandoms altogether, which is where the “missed everything” feeling comes from. There does seem to actually be quite a few new people joining the fandom right now, though, so maybe we’ll be seeing some new stuff soon? Also, a lot of people aren’t writers, so even if they do ship it, they don’t contribute to the fic count. There are some more shippy ones listed under gen, though.
And no, the post wasn’t about you. It was more about someone else’s posts, and some stuff I’ve seen in general. I definitely understand that anxiety about enjoying things.
Oh, I saw that post when scrolling through the blog. Fuck that noise, I can’t stop smiling looking through that because he’s kind of adorable and infectious? I don’t understand this kind of ‘too ugly to enjoy’ mindset. I’ve seen some of it on dA too of people like, 'ugh, I don’t want to see people shipping that because Londo is not good looking’ and I’m just kind of 'Wow, fuck off? What a shitbag thing to say.’
That blog has actually been super useful for me to grab reference from, incidentally, because they’re all super candid images rather than posed for promotional stuff, so they’re more expressive.
Here I was worried there was some kind of freaky epidemic or something. I don’t typically track the tags of the things I love because I end up seeing hate and it sets off the shame and anxiety things, so I thought maybe this was all going down in the proper tags for all this nonsense and it was something I was missing for not having tag adventures.
Because then it was like, 'Okay, if there are enough people to whine about (and be wrong about) it, surely something is GOING ON SOMEWHERE? WHERE IS IT HAPPENING, SHOW ME THE THINGS.’
I’ve had several followers volunteer to follow me into this particular swamp of fandom misery after they all watched my liveblog into oblivion, so I may have a trail of other enthusiastic people coming in behind me soon~ But yeah, everything you’re saying is pretty much exactly what I’ve been seeing - all kind of in 2010-ish stuff happening anywhere and sort of blips here and there, but not a large constant stream of activity.
Anyway, that’s a relief that you didn’t think I was contributing in some sort of negative way, that would have been upsetting. My terror with liking things is a lifelong adventure, unfortunately, and these two don’t get to be an exception. I’ll get braver the more I do it, so I’m mostly doing some weird combo of forcing and indulging myself now, haha. Eventually it’ll be something that looks emphatically shippy but that generally requires more comfort with myself and just getting used to drawing the shapes of the people involved. Garak and Bashir was the same way, and I eventually got comfortable, but seeing some hate early on in my Shipping Adventures with them nearly made me shut down entirely and just stop doing anything, which I definitely don’t want to risk that happening again.
annnnnnnnd now my tablet cord is fucked the hell up
Rad.
I just wanted to color Lisa Frank >:C
I wish it had shown symptoms of fucking up before I left, I would have just grabbed my reserve tablet.
I was trying out some black because it’s feeling overwhelmingly purple, plus it gave me just a bit more contrast. It’s given Londo the effect of looking kind of rad in the eye makeup department, though his hair still needs some sort of adjusting.
i’ll stop dressing in black when they invent a darker colour
finally something to match my soul
If you haven’t seen this, it’s actually so black that if they made clothing out of it, it would just appear as though there was a photoshopped hole where your clothing is.
finally i can become the void
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*rubs my gay little hands all over your favorite tv show* does this upset u
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radioactivesoup replied to your post:So I’ve been sitting around, resigned to ‘I ship…
way more than six people! the b5 fandom doesn’t seem to be nearly as big as star trek, or ds9 specifically, but it’s not that small, and londo/g’kar seems to be the most popular pairing! I’m glad that you’re taking it as a challenge though- win!!
Haha, yeah, I wasn’t meaning like the entire Babylon 5 thing, just this little fucking subset of Londo and G'Kar I seem to have gotten myself tied up in. Perhaps I just don’t know what things to look at or where things are happening? I feel like everything I’ve seen has happened already and I’m just looking at some archealogical ruins on LiveJournal. Mostly it’s broken links and three pages on AO3 and I’ve seen like two other people drawing things? I’m just sort of looking for where the current action is, mostly. And since I kind of like to lurk and check shit out for a while, I haven’t screamed into the void and asked where it all is yet.
This is maybe partly why I felt like it might have to be a DD9 situation, and I just make a little hub here with enough gravity to have casualties of other people’s blogs, haha.
(You’ll be pleased to know I successfully got a hook in tinsnip this weekend~)
