★Kingdom★Burning★Down★

therothwoman:
“myrtlewilson:
“ “ With everyone debating what the “last meme of 2014” will be, I’d just like to take a step back and remember the finer things in life. Newgrounds. Albinoblacksheep. Ebaumsworld.
As we close out 2014 I’d like you all to...

myrtlewilson:
With everyone debating what the “last meme of 2014” will be, I’d just like to take a step back and remember the finer things in life. Newgrounds. Albinoblacksheep. Ebaumsworld.
As we close out 2014 I’d like you all to remember your roots and where you came from. Remember: you can take the kid off of Newgrounds and Albinoblacksheep but you can’t take the piece of shit memer aestietic out of the kid.
[LISTEN]
oh my god

(via therothwoman)

indigobluerose:

okay so like i don’t really care for ship name portmanteaus in general and garashir sounds like some kind of terrible injury. D:

saaaame

I have such loathing for smashy ship names.

“
You cannot hurt yourself better,
you cannot starve yourself to happiness
and you will not find answers
in the destruction of yourself.

Taking yourself to pieces
will not make you whole
and hitting rock bottom
is not the only way up.
”

- N.J., I know you are hurting, but you don’t have to hurt yourself too. (via i-will-go-the-distance)

(via feltelures)

colonelcheru:

alliedmasterc0mputer:
This is my favourite thing. (please watch with sound)
beep beep beep beep

(via walrus-queen)

nayashardez replied to your post:ok i just wanted u to know that swan was like a…

YAY SWAN! This is what I meant when I said I felt differently about reSWAN vs. SWAN. It’s not so much that they different (I love both in different ways), but we also get to see different sides of everyone in each version.

Your writing has matured a lot too! I noticed that when I re-read SWAN last year, as compared to reading it when you first shared it on Cherry Doom, I picked up on little things I never noticed before. Also I adore non-binary Johnny in reSWAN a LOT.

Part of me thinks they are different sides of them, and part of me just thinks they’re sides that have always been there, they were just buried under my general unease and fear! Both versions are addressing the same general themes and people and events, but there are some things that add (or maybe it’s reveal) other layers to it. So maybe I’m enjoying it differently too! Thanks for talking about it a little! I really appreciated the flood of comments on dA, haha.

And goodness, thank you, I would hope it had matured some in almost ten years since I did the first chapter, haha. I’m always going to be primarily a painter, but I do suffer from this delusion that I can occasionally string words together in a pleasing fashion and I’d like to keep doing that as much as is feasible, though I’m not always as keen to share it.

One of the biggest things with the new version is just getting more details and motivations into things. There were times when I went back and re-read SWAN for purposes of writing ISH or drawing things or even doing this reSWAN stuff and I can see places where I remember writing Johnny being weird and cryptic but leaving out what he was being weird about. And a lot of that was doing seat of my pants writing versus this ‘knowing where I’m going and having a prior draft’ thing I have going on now, but there were parts that I distinctly remember leaving it out on purpose and then just mentioning it later in the extras because there was no where to put it otherwise or I just wasn’t skilled enough to get it together? Something like that. Now, we eventually learn the reasons for Johnny’s quirks and long stares and strange looks (most of them relating to songs and looking for Edgar’s), so there’s less just sitting there and accepting 'lol nny’ for the long haul, haha.

I AM DELIGHTED you like non-binary Johnny because I love him too, and that seems to be the consensus reaction. He’s 16, so he doesn’t have everything concretely figured out for himself yet, so what he tells Edgar is a bit like an identity in progress, but if he has to be comfortable with an umbrella term, that’s the one he’s got at the moment and he and Edgar roll with it. He’s weirdly fortunate that, at the moment, he only has four people in his world and they aren’t causing any kind of threat to his sense of self. Being a visible person is going to piss him off a little more than he’s expecting because of some things related to this, but I think he’ll respond to it in an appropriately theatrical manner, so he’ll be okay. (I say, as though he’s real and/or I don’t know. The rabbit hole is deep, my friend.)

I’m still considering having him sample some other pronouns at some point because, right now, even as he tells Tenna and Edgar otherwise, he’s still kind of operating under 'he’ as neutral and default. He knows he’s contradicting himself a little, but this IS Johnny, so how much he’s going to admit to that or deal with it, I don’t know.

He still has to touch on the asexual spectrum thing later too (which I’ve written part of, but is not in what’s currently up yet), so he’s got all sorts of personal details that Edgar has to learn about in addition to them dealing with 'The Anti-Christ feeds us cookies and is bad at his job.’ And then Edgar can be a goddamn class act and we’re all happy.

And then we die from happy, haha.

timeskips:

Cozy under my (Star Trek) blanket, sipping chai from my (Star Trek) mug, while watching Netflix. (Spaceballs. You thought I was going to say Star Trek, didn’t you?)
Thanks, ladyyatexel!

OH MY GOD, ANOTHER ONE YAY :D

You are livin’ the dream, my friend.

Thanks so much for getting a mug and posting a photo~ I hope it serves you well!

kaza999 asked: ok i just wanted u to know that swan was like a really formative gender/gender presentation influence for me and i always think about that any time swan stuff comes up long story short toenail painting is a good thing and so are pigtails

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAaaaa, I am just so !! about this. Like, touched and grateful and relieved or something.

I just really love knowing this kind of stuff. I love hearing people saying that something changed in them because of this story, literally no matter what it was. “I think about fortune cookies differently now!” Fuck, I’m so glad. ”I changed the way I think about non-hetero relationships in fandom!” Hells yes, friend. And I am sincere in my enthusiasm for those things, like wow, but when it’s something big like this, I’m just extra emotional about it. All the times when I thought, ‘Oh god, I should take all that stuff down,’ I’ve stopped because I’ve remembered that people have told me things like this. I’m really touched and honored to have contributed something like that to you, especially with the original version, which didn’t really explicitly cover that sort of thing.

I put so much stuff into this damn story and came out completely changed on the other side, so I’m really so grateful that I sort of have companions in that and that I contributed to something in someone else’s life by making something that sounds so ridiculous when you break it down.

So yes, long story short, I am fucking SO ON BOARD with nail painting and pigtails (and hair clips and shirt dresses and glitter and stars and exta holes in heads and and and), and I am so glad you are too!

An auxiliary art dump on LJ features this doodle of Johnny painting Edgar’s nails, and a back and forth collection of horrible and cute from upcoming events in reSWAN. There’s also a lot of me talking about body language, hair cuts, and things that have changed about Johnny through the different times I’ve been dealing with him in this universe. I hope some of you will find it interesting! There’s a lot more than I expected, I think I really needed to talk about this stuff!

There’s a picture of SWANNny on my old hardrive with tiny Devi-esque pigtails, and back when I drew it a million years ago, it was hilarious. Now I’m just kinda like, ‘Yeah, that would keep it out of his face for a while.’

“You cannot hurt yourself better, you cannot starve yourself to happiness and you will not find answers in the destruction of yourself. Taking yourself to pieces will not make you whole and hitting rock bottom is not the only way up.”

★Kingdom★Burning★Down★

“
You cannot hurt yourself better,
you cannot starve yourself to happiness
and you will not find answers
in the destruction of yourself.

Taking yourself to pieces
will not make you whole
and hitting rock bottom
is not the only way up.
”