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deep sigh of contentment
no way
this is some portal 2 shit
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cat-onawall replied to your post:my heart’s been racing and leaving me out of…
Panic/anxiety attacks?
Oh, almost certainly. All the anxiety stuff has gotten so much worse since I came down here, I hope it ends up being worth it. And then the feelings I end up with BECAUSE of the increased anxiety attacks - of being a burden and nuisance and in the way and wondering why people are even bothering with me - just end up making more of the heart racing shit happen, and then it’s like this spiral from hell, it’s kind of terrible.
I’ve done significantly worse since like 45 minutes ago when my friend came home and tried to invite me to something that’d I’d have to go without all the information I’d need to feel secure doing it, and now I just feel like she must think I’m a lazy loser, so my heart has just been fucking FULL SPEED AHEAD for at least that long, and I’m starting to have trouble breathing. She keeps talking and I forget what she says five seconds later.
my heart’s been racing and leaving me out of breath at random times and for no discernible reason for the last day and a half
more adventures in lady needs to find a doctor
i hope i’m not having tiny heart attacks all day
Rules:
- take a screenshot of your desktop
- don’t change anything
- don’t delete anything
- tag 5 more people
I was tagged by radioactivesoup~
Yeah, I use my own art as wallpaper, fight me. It also doesn’t say ‘Don’t give a tour’ but again, fight me.
On your right is the weird collection of games and things that I really shouldn’t have on my desktop, but whatever, I do what I want. You can see some color meme shit and the thing I’m doing with tinsnip across the top there too. Also some audio book Jeeves, my livestream thing, a beta game I haven’t unzipped yet, and the London version of Children of Eden, which I uploaded for Zarla like a month ago and then just left there, because whatever.
Other things on top include vague todo lists, PDF of the Gallifrey Art Show rules, and a drawing a friend sent me for some reason. (I mean that it’s up there for some reason, not that they sent it for some reason.)
On your left, the driver for my tablet, because I have to reinstall it constantly, the SWAN/ISH playlist, some lyrics for a song that’s in SWAN, shortcut to my art folder, shortcut to my pixel doll folder, a folder of hair inspiration, and Amazon Music, which use to download things and then for literally nothing else, so I should really move it.
I tag: nounofrassilon, tinsnip theinkedcrow do-you-have-a-flag and bornofajackalope, whose url does not seem to work with this thing. ALSO KATY, whose new URL I have not internalized and left me confused when I typed KATY after the @ and did not get a person I recognized
WOW, I FOUND THE PERFECT SHIT FOR THIS OH MY GOD HAVE I REALLY NEVER SEEN THIS CONNECTION BEFORE HOLY SHIT
listening to music while cooking, 10/10, would recommend
oh yes, I remember this old SWAN game of “This song is very important, is this moment important enough to be associated with it?”
I’ve been trying to use my extra day off to catch up on this shit, and I think it’s working, but now deciding on a song is proving to be a mild struggle. The bit that needs to be songed isn’t an scenario in the original (most of what I’m doing now isn’t) so I’m feeling a lot of this strange but familiar strain of trying to get things to match.
I have a list of songs that have to go in because they’re original flavor SWAN and I said I wouldn’t take any out. Plus I have songs that I really want it because they’re particularly good or significant (like, from someone involved in the creation of the original), so there’s some to pick from, but STILL, this feels like crucial shit and I don’t want to miss, haha.
I think I might make some food while the music all plays and see if that helps.
