[Video Description: A tiktok of a man replying to a comment by @/heatherblue50, that reads: I love parenting. I hope you consider it at some point in life. It really stretches you to grow as a person. I’m sure I’ll adopt again.
The man says:
I’m absolutely not going to consider parenting for the same reason that you’re talking about. I’m not going to use a child as a way to stretch my ability to grow as a person. What a gross thing to do. What a gross thing to do—what a gross amount of pressure to put on a child. Nope, I am not going to have children because I know that I wouldn’t be a good father, well aware of it. Well aware of it—I barely take care of myself. I’m not patient with myself, how am I gonna be patient with a child? And then when I make mistakes, have the luxury of saying, ‘Well, there’s no way to be a perfect parent, I did the best I could—’I mean you could have done a lot better, you could have not had me. That would of been—*laughs* anyway. I’m not going to consider it, I already considered it and I’ve come to a logical—and the Earth is on fire! But anyway, I’ve come to a logical conclusion to not have children because I’m incapable of doing so ‘cause I don’t have that type of patience. I know that I don’t. And I’m not going to torture a child so that I can learn how to get it.
Because I had and or am having a massive depressive episode and just feel like there is no hope of anything forever
But i made a nice ryou drawing at some point in the three days I’ve just been in bed hating myself and occasionally eating a Pop-Tart or some of my first homemade mashed potatoes
So I will post that Ryou tomorrow when Maybe everything will feel less despair shaped
Looking also to have my little button shop open but “ excuse you you are going to have a massive depressive episode instead” put a small damper on that being as super stocked as hoped so stay tuned for either a little less merch and slow introduction of more things or waiting longer for anythings at all
