i’m so goddamn tired in general, but mostly of holiday, holy shit

bracing myself for more fucking christmas music at work.  honestly, it would be better if it weren’t the same fifteen fucking relentlessly crack happy songs all day, but no

i feel just like ‘here, everyone take your gifts and leave me the fuck alone until an unspecified future time’

I feel more like giving random gifts in like, June.  December already takes so much out of me just to function normally, and now I’m expected to do Extreme Competitive Socializing AND produce gifts of an acceptable level of quality, thoughtfulness, and expense 

I haven’t been excited for this holiday in seven or eight years.  I look forward to nothing about this except a day off work and some time to sleep.