When I have flashes of, ‘Oh my god, I think I just shipped that’, I like to go to AO3 and just see if it is a thing.  I am usually both comforted that other people have committed to shipping something to the point of fanwork and am kind of baffled at my apparent superpower that is finding tiny holes in the wall in which to enjoy fandom things.   Like, “Yes, Lady, other people have said, 'i think i ship that’, but it was four other people.  Congrats, you massive loser.”   This is like a summary of my fandom history.  

I think Garak and Bashir is the largest fandom thing I’ve done, in terms of number of other fans and relative pervasiveness, and even that is kind of little niche in a wall when you take it in the context of Star Trek as a whole.  One day, I will like something that swarms of other people like and I will grow suspicious.