Do you ever have projects or tasks you just really want to do alone, even if someone else to help you would make it easier or faster? 

I forgot one of the ingredients to some cookies I wanted to make today (in a weird flash of voluntarily making a food that was not utterly necessary), and I told the friend I’m staying with that that had happened.  I guess now she’s picking up said ingredient?  I really don’t want to make these with her, or with her here at all, I’d rather just fuck them up by myself, with no witnesses to how awkwardly I do everything.  

But it’s going to look weird that I was super excited about cookies this morning but now that I have all the pieces, don’t want to do it.  I don’t really know how to explain, ‘no, i really want to make these cookies, I just really want to do it totally alone’ :|