In other news I’ve been making a concentrated effort to reduce the amount of added sugar bullshit that I eat and it has been rather successful. I told myself if I could stick with it for a whole week I would reward myself for a good start, but now I’m like eehhhh I’m not sure I can afford the reward anymore
I might have to wait longer, alas
But this is going to be it, eventually:
Part of my intense depression in the last year manifested as I don’t give a fuck I’m just going to eat this whole box of Oreos and I’m just going to eat this other unhealthy snack until I feel sick because I don’t really feel anything else
So now it’s no you’re limiting yourself to a human amount of snacks, an amount which you have judged by actually Understanding Nutrition labels, and you are changing your meals and snacking habits accordingly, including not sneaking to your supervisor’s candy bowl everyday at 2:30
This has left me with the unfortunate problem of there being a lot of ice cream in my freezer along with the cake that my mother made for me neither of which I have any intention of getting rid of but I now have to figure out when I can eat
I have a similar problem with my favorite applesauce which apparently is just most of the day’s sugar no matter what metric you’re using. I bought the applesauce initially because I thought it would be better then a lot of other kinds of snack food items and now I love it so now it’s just sadly sitting in my fridge until I can figure out a way to work it in on a special day or just eat like half a spoonful so that I don’t go over the sugar limits
I probably need to change how I eat like fucking completely but this was a change that I both sincerely wanted to do and that actually seemed within the realm of possibility for me to accomplish. And I’ve learned that I get overwhelmed if I try to change too many things at once so this is where I’m at.
This is why I was so pissed that somebody ate my breakfast the other day because they threw off everything that I had been working on really hard in addition to leaving me very hungry
In conclusion this is why I was going to give myself a reward because I’m doing really good damn it. At least on that front.
