All of my dreams are either semi or totally lucid and I just wish it would stop

they’re so exhausting, nothing stops, there’s no rest, and half the time I’m doing stuff in real life that I’m also doing in the dream

Holding my breath, spitting, trying to twist my phone in half, I would just like to wake up and find out that I haven’t been doing something like these

I feel pain in the dreams and someone is trying to shoot me really frequently, they start almost the second I close my eyes, there’s not a one that is free of worry or concern or responsibility. I’m always going to a class that I haven’t gone to all semester or I’m stuck with my dad or I’m late or I’m driving or I’m stuck with my ex or I’m being abducted or attacked

I usually realize I’m dreaming and try to force myself awake but I often can’t which leads to me just being trapped in some horrific situation inside my brain

Last night a woman with a gun busted into my childhood home with a gun when I was late for school and sexually assaulted me and a childhood friend.

I also got lost in a museum after escaping a high school gym class. We couldn’t stop the audio of the YouTube playlist I accidentally fell asleep to.

Childhood friend stole my car to take all of her other friends to a class I’ve been missing all semester. The trunk was full of vintage toys.

I escaped somewhere to find my mother in a department store only to see that she was letting some 11 year old kid call her mom and was ignoring me. I punched the kid in the stomach.

Had to run up endless flights of stairs in a line with hundreds of girls. Everyone was wearing a swimsuit in one of four colors and every suit had accompanying accessories with anywhere from 1 to 4 ribs or stripes. The suits all had different necklines and different bottom shapes and you had to keep yourselves perfectly in order according to color shape and number of ribs while you ran up a spiral staircase that I knew didn’t end. I was the only new person and I was just trying to guess where I belonged in the line and just trying to keep up.

My throat is really sore and I’m really tired.