It would be cool if I could get the gland in my head removed that just tells me to take myself from everyone’s lives immediately the second I think I perceive even the tiniest thing going slightly off

Like everything now makes me think that I am the worst thing that has ever happened to anyone who knows me and that it would just be better for them if I made a quiet exit without any fuss

I know logically that this cannot possibly be the case but my brain is not having any of that

I’m very concerned that like every movement I make is deeply selfish, and that it’s the same with every action and every idea and every word and every barely conscious thought. All of it selfish in the bad way and not in the organism has to survive way.

I talk to my therapist about a lot of things related to this but I think maybe I need to just find an empty journal or commit to my livejournal a little more. Haha, in the same way that I feel selfish existing maybe I feel selfish using this as an actual Journal

That’s hilarious