Something that always happens to me every single time is that I feel the need to seek outside approval for using a sick day

It is very probable that me posting this is in fact some way of doing that also

I keep trying to remind myself that I hate this job and I don’t owe them shit and my health on any level is infinitely more important than worthless repetitive paperwork

I keep trying to remember that I’m going to be subjected to being cold or else dried out by the space heater and I’m going to have to listen to sexist bullshit and I won’t be able to go anywhere

I get so worried that they will think that I’m coming up with a pattern or something

And I know for a fact that one person is out today

But then I just remembered that i am statistically still super contagious so I would be the asshole if I went

Look how much justification that takes though god

I wish I could just know that I need it and do it and not have to be upset about whether I’m doing an allowed thing