I decided today that what I most valued getting done was addressing the clothing apocalypse that had happened in my bedroom, so I went right to the dollar store after work and bought like 30 hangers and just came home and put up all the things that didn’t have somewhere to be or things that would be better served hanging rather than folding like my bulky sweaters

I ordered pizza while I did this, because I decided that I valued the time spent better as cleaning and organizing and fixing than in food preparation and was willing to exchange money for it

This is basically a thing I have been discussing with my therapist but it felt nice to just sit and make that decision and not feel any kind of guilt or anything about it. It’s been nice to stop thinking about food deliveries or paying for services as luxuries that I should punish myself for doing too often rather than a thing that legitimately serves me very well and that improves my life on a really base level. I get more done and I feel less stressed out and less miserable and less hopeless if I get to spend the time that I would spend cooking or at the grocery store making art or taking care of my environment instead. I hate dealing with absolutely everything about food and I’m glad that I can reduce it and improve things for myself here and there.