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Oh my god, I didn’t even realize the date. It’s SWANniversary~ i should make a thing
It’s 12 today! Old enough to lie about its age on deviantArt and be really into making terrible OCs for a variety of popular franchises.
If you’ve read SWAN or reSWAN (or both!), I’d love it if you told me (however you like) which of these damaged glitter children you identify with the most and why! I’ve received some answers to that that surprised me recently!
I’m in a really Devi mood lately (the head that resonates through the ages!), but I came for the Edgar and stayed for the Jimmy. Edgar’s place as an outsider, trying to fit in speaks to me, but the way Jimmy is an insider to the group and still somehow an outsider in many ways really speaks to me. He’s got the right human skin on but he can’t quite get it to fit right. Or maybe that’s Johnny?
Yeah, each of them have a piece of me that identifies with them.
Okay, I love the idea of wearing the right human skin but not fitting into it.
Maybe what’s interesting about this group is how it does and doesn’t exist. Just reading what you’ve written makes me think that actually, they all think they’re outside the group. They all have a different group in their head that they aren’t part of and they’re trying really hard to fake being good enough for.
Edgar came late, doesn’t feel spooky or strange enough to belong there. Doesn’t know what ‘normal’ can contribute. In his eyes, everyone else is comfortably weird and scary and knows themselves and belongs in a band called ‘The Homicides’ and he’s the normal one playing dress up.
Jimmy got mistreated in order to be let in and is now questioning who he is and what he wants and what he deserves. Jimmy sees everyone else in neat little pairs and lives outside the group in his trailer and wonders what is missing in him that he didn’t work the way the rest of them did.
Tenna worries that she doesn’t have a real connection to them because she doesn’t have any old connection to Johnny. She sees a group of Johnny and his remembered relationships and then there she is, just Devi’s keychain.
Devi thinks no one else sees how messed up everything is. She worries everyone else is having fun and isn’t thinking about the implications of anything. Even the people she thinks are rational sometimes (Edgar, Tenna) fail her. She likes the group, but she feels her temperament doesn’t match them, and they wouldn’t miss her if she left.
Johnny doesn’t have a song, doesn’t have a gender he likes or wants, doesn’t experience the attractions everyone else does. The others do these things as easily as they breathe, and for him they’re impossible. He makes things up, lies, omits things, tries his best to make sure he stays interesting enough for his people to still follow him everywhere.
I’ve been digging in my swanish tag trying to find something and came across this little blip about how every person in the group feels outside of the group, and I know it is something that I wrote down but it is resonating particularly today
(via ladyyatexel)
