Having a fucked up eye took all of my sick time but I desperately wish I could call off today I slept like garbage and I feel like stressed garbage

My limbs are like bags of unbalanced weight and my head aches and I just don’t know how long I can keep being pecked to oblivion about meaningless repetitive work that incessantly reminds me that assaults and robberies and crushing addition are everywhere and happening constantly, over and over and over

When I started at this job and dismayed when I looked at the stuff that was happening, people who have been working there for years just laughed and said hey it’s job security and just

this makes me despair, this drains me, this destroys pieces of me daily

I told my whole family that this job would be horrible for me when I accepted the position because they were the only people who wanted to hire me and they all just thought I was being dramatic and picky. Now even my mom is telling me to find literally anything else.

No one ever believes me about fucking anything until I am crying and incapacitated on the floor.