I’m about to just start crying

I hurt all over, I lost my bad brain pills yesterday morning so i missed a dose, the nightmares were comstant and drove me toi adrenaline exhaustion by like 5am to say nothing about it continuing to 7 am, it stormed all night and spooked me and the cat, my apartment is a shit show i can’t keep a handle on anything

Had such a good time yesterday but i am in tatters today

I habe no sick time because of the respiratory infection i picked up at the end of last year that lasted 4 months and my fucking eyeball that is now going on 5

I want to lie on the floor