I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to get out

I keep having these dreams where I wake up at night panic because I don’t know where I am or where I’m going. Last night was literally that I was in an airport end I was both coming from and going to Gallifrey and Portland and I kept changing the gate and but then I accidentally walked out of the terminal and had to go back through security and I had to drive there?

And then I woke up and had to reassure myself of where I am and that just keeps happening. My subconscious is screaming but it doesn’t feel safe and it wants to go somewhere else and it’s just terrified and I don’t think I’ll ever have any of the tools to fix it

I have an obviously profitable skill but no one is hiring reliably for it. To get the kind of money I would need to live any better than in a shity upstairs apartment, I would need to get a job managing things and being in charge of people and I don’t want to do anything like that

I feel so much like the world is limited to a certain personality type.

Everything blew up in the middle of typing this and so now I’m sobbing in my car someone please show me how to get out I don’t know what to do I don’t know how to do it