I have a horrible nauseated anxious feeling in my entire torso and I want to text everyone I know and ask them if they are really my friends and not just playing some really elaborate and expensive long game which would be frankly ludicrous at the stage, but my brain is Convinced I’m the most annoying person alive and anyone who has ever encountered me has considered me That Person who is awkward unfortunate weird and annoying and they are trying to figure out to this day how they can weasel out of seeing me ever again

I know this is irrational but my insides are making me feel shaky and vomity so they are apparently not convinced

“ what if everyone you love has just been tolerating you all this time?”

My insides want to be my outsides