I hope you know I didn't mean anything negative by saying it "isn't canon", I just knew it wasn't supposed to be part of the story anymore. Saying an old version would have better suited, probably.
Oh, no, not at all! I thought it was funny!
It’s a term you’re used to hearing for massive franchises, not obscenely niche fanfiction. So it was fun hearing it applied to the hours of madness I’ve devoted to this thing, like damn, I have done A Lot of this and in a lot of weird ways, haven’t I?
It was all good! Sorry if I gave off a vibe that it was upsetting! I am, in all fairness to you, some kind of game of pinball hybridized with darts tonight as far as where my posts are landing in the emotional realm, so it was kind of you to check!
And yknow, if Vampire Edgar ever finds its way to a continuation… Or Edgar using Nny on and off his meds as a case study, though that was art and neither of these are SWAN–Glad you’re good : )
Vampire Edgar is a noble institution. He’s a national treasure a dozen people know about.
and oh god the on and off meds drawing was the always elusive ‘other’ verse, which was either SWAN with parents or SWAN got the bad ending and we are now on attempt number 4 to just not die horrifically, depending on how i felt day to day
It was high octane teenage melodrama because that’s just what I wanted to do hahaha. But that version of Johnny was very funny and lived such a shitty life and he informed the reSWAN one arguably more than the person he was in original SWAN/ISH, so it was all for the good.
Can I name more than like, 5 U.S. presidents? No.
Do I remember that Johnny threw a psychology book at his mother and Edgar thought it was dramatic irony? Yes.
This is probably why college took me so long…
POINT IS- I love your stuff and I probably remember more of it that you want anyone to sometimes lol
aaaaaaaahahaha you are one of very few who I imagine remember any of that, that is incredible! Were you one of the people I actually let read any of that, or did you just vividly internalize the doodles? I had the written stuff on a heavy lockdown and people had to come ask for it after gaining my trust and proving their worth like I was some kind of Terrible AU Fanfic Sphinx.
SWAN is definitely why college took me longer than it was supposed to for a variety of reasons, if that’s any consolation.
I just vividly internalized the doodles lmao
You were someone, to me, you were someone who wasn’t vilifying the weird or the mental shit, but you weren’t sterilizing it either like doctors/media who consulted certain types of people
You were standing in the middle of the mess and saying, yeah, this is fucked! And you offered your writings and art up and there was connection and understanding. I’ve also always been an artist and loved your style, the balance of realism… I call it animated/cartoon for lack of a better description.
So yeah. I looked over your stuff a lot, and my brain is disordered so I remember certain things with freakish ability.
You were gonna leave one of the nicest sentiments ever directed at me in the tags!!! I want to pin that to my refrigerator, or glue it in the back of a SketchBook.
I’m glad you got the Vibes you did and that I’ve been doing what I thought I was doing, haha
I’ve always had a hard time connecting with super positive greeting card views of things. I made all this junk hoping it would connect and make sense to other people because it was a reality I had that I had ugly feelings and thoughts and things and wondered if everyone else was really over things so quickly or if they were just pretending. So much of it was wondering if other people were just pretending, damn. I haven’t said it quite that way before, but it’s a lot of that. I always seem to have feelings much larger and for longer than people want or are comfortable with and I think that’s sort of a disservice on the part of society that we hurry to cover uncomfortable, immediately eradicate anger or grief, and just kind of keep things away because it’s ~polite~
I don’t want to glorify being sad or angry or whatever but I also don’t think they should be stigmatized and rushed to be cured like some sort of disease. It would be nice if they were allowed to be and not seen as a problem that needed to be immediately erased. It would be nice if people were allowed to take as long as they wanted with them and were allowed to think and express things more openly rather than keeping everything resentfully restrained so that it fits inside a Hallmark card. I just wanted to make this thing honest emotionally, even if that meant it would sometimes be ugly.
So yeah, it was saying, “wow this is fucked!” and, also, “but here we are!”
