ugh dysphoria is so fuckin complicated like no I don’t wanna look like a girl yes I wanna look like a dude who looks like a girl
If gender was color, some types of genderqueer are the types that come from light effects rather than pigment. The layering effect of bouncing back and forth across the common dividing line, the bent-but-some-of-it’s-differently-bent refraction that produces a rainbow through a prism, the changing iridescence of something whose molecular structure is the same size as a color wavelength, the reflection of one color onto a surface that has another color, but is shiny.
The effect of straight-up female is different than female-layered-over-male is different than female-over-male-over-female layers; gender layered over androgyny is different than gender layered over other gender, and androgyny itself might have subtle changes based on if any or what of the underlying, obscured original gender shows through. Fabric in pink light and fabric in blue light look different, even if it’s the same color.
Sometimes “green, but a little blue” paint isn’t enough, and we want to be peacock feathers.
[image from ierohero: tag by notegender: “#YES i do wanna look like the boyfriend who looks like a girlfriend that brandon flowers had in february of last year”.]
