I had so many nightmares

I was able to tell my dad to go fuck himself in some of the best possible ways, and a lot of it was animation again

but if also involved me just constantly fighting for my dignity to exist and my dad intentionally choosing to shoot me in the face with some kind of bb gun while also hitting a kind of cheetah monster that was threatening to attack the family 

and there was just constant gaslighting and denial and in the dreams i had recordings of my other dreams and i would play them for people, please listen and look at the damage this caused  

I feel dizzy and drained

i see a nap in my future but imagine it will also be full of nightmares, so i don’t know that will solve any problems