Other joys I struggle to locate

Sometimes they aren’t even there, the way my medication makes swiping letters on a keyboard turn to a cookies and cream gelato smear

But that’s not one i can or should indulge on purpose

Other times they feel undeserved

How important is this is it worth risking

In a way had the same options then as now but now the options are morally on shaky ground

I would hate what you buy at Walmart and you would hate what I would buy at Walmart so let’s not die for The Other guy’s purchase at Walmart

Buy things buy things they go in the joy bucket with the holes in the bottom until it is full

A joy I’m not at work, but we left saying “see you in two weeks” and two weeks didn’t come

Finding purpose that matches the inside with the outside, that joy is a cup and no drilled holes

What can i make that reaches beyond me or goes so far in it is beyond again

The bird outside sounds like gunfire and I’ve done the same day so many times I don’t know where I should be within it