Wow that was

So many nightmares

Nightmares inside of nightmares

All where I “wake up” but I’m still dreaming and think I’m home and safe except I don’t know how I got there. And then something horrible happens and I’m screaming that it’s not real and I need to get out.

I woke up five or six times with my muscles aching from being tensed and my heart and adrenaline making my whole body tremble

Wish we could Not

Returning themes: i live in a hotel or multi unit complex on the third floor, my brother helps but he’s about 14 instead of almost 30, fake awakening, enough lucidity to know it’s a dream and to try to force real awakening, lost, trapped, looming inescapable creepy men, unable to get answers/help, forgetting,

Increasing amounts of animation and surreal images. The elevator opening to reveal a steel bath and shower combo with a rotating blackened caricature of the looming men was a big one