My back never gets better than ‘uncomfortable’ and sometimes works its way up to 'agony’

I know people have worse things for longer, but I’m so tired from the constantly clenched muscle and from the daily exercise routine to attempt to relieve it. All of me is hurting or exhausted at any given time.

Afraid of just being tired achy and uncomfortable for the rest of my life and slowly becoming too difficult to accommodate to the point that all my great loves to share with friends will just vanish. What if I can’t document cemeteries or go to the medieval faire or fright night at the amusement park or Gallifrey or Disneyland or Oddmall or shopping with my mom