I still feel Um

Primarily tired and despair

Because I had and or am having a massive depressive episode and just feel like there is no hope of anything forever

But i made a nice ryou drawing at some point in the three days I’ve just been in bed hating myself and occasionally eating a Pop-Tart or some of my first homemade mashed potatoes

So I will post that Ryou tomorrow when Maybe everything will feel less despair shaped

Looking also to have my little button shop open but “ excuse you you are going to have a massive depressive episode instead” put a small damper on that being as super stocked as hoped so stay tuned for either a little less merch and slow introduction of more things or waiting longer for anythings at all