I keep being really interested in fan events despite not actually having a great time with almost all of the ones I tried out this year hahaha Clearly there is something I am looking for in these events that I am willing to suffer a little bit for. It’s like craving a specific vitamin or something.

There’s a lot of artist on the internet stuff that I have never done. Like an art trade! I’ve been watching other people do those for like 20 years, but I’ve never done one or even been asked haha

I used to get told all the time that I was extremely intimidating, so that is probably why it did not happen in the past. I think it’s less so now, but I wonder if it is just kind of always going to linger there to some degree depending on where people know me from. I think I still kind of freak out a lot of SWAN people.

I miss when my friends and I used to just hang out and draw with each other and for each other. I was hoping to Foster something like that from the art fight event in July but I had so many things to do and so many due dates in July that I didn’t get a chance to do literally anything for that event, so that was a bummer.

I’ve never had a lot of internet artist friends and I have been trying to change that recently, but I think I’m bad at it haha

That’s not like a pathetic sad please love me kind of statement it’s just a funny observation don’t worry I’m fine