I cannot do all these things????

I can’t therapy and clean apartment and make food and try to scrape together work in order to shut up my landlord for a little longer! I cannot do all these things! I just do not have all these tasks in me! I sleep so much because there’s so much energy going toward whatever the fuck is wrong with me, man, I just do not have the anything to do any of this! There is not enough of me in the container to be applied to all these things

The fuck am I gonna do, I do not know. I have to eat something, though, I have not eaten all day. I know that will feel better on some level.

Just have to stagger across the house to do it haha

This really is what it is like in my head right now, like, for one hour, we are doing Great and we will succeed and we will be here to take care of Onyx forever and meet Jodie on both feet with no pain in February. And then the next hour we are lopsided aching flesh and nothing is doable and our surroundings are are a disaster.

And then I’ll post about stickers and dolls and things again so we can all pretend nothing is happening hahaha