I don’t know if I mentioned it, I guess, but I didn’t get to have like the 30 seconds I hoped I would have to tell Jodie about my cane and putting her Doctor on it first thing as inspiration and how I felt such hope in her and doing PT to her theme music and keeping going because of her and 13 and Everything and I had had so much weight propped up on getting that moment to tell her that I sat on my hotel bed and cried the next day about just Everything after I processed that the moment I dreamed about was Gone.

I know why they had to do it all that way, and I left her a note, but I still feel kind of heart cracked about it. I keep tearing up when I think about it.