I took me twice as long to get home today because I am a human disaster and had some extreme anxiety time when the roads were shut down for sports shit.  I cried for the last quarter of the way home after fucking up and ending up taking a fucking driving tour of the greater Pittsburgh area because when it gets that bad ‘left’ and 'right’ are meaningless and signs stop making sense and I just PANIC. I parked half on the curb and swore at an old man who watched me do it.  

I just want to curl up in a hole with something nice and never come out again.