cat-onawall replied to your post:my heart’s been racing and leaving me out of…

Panic/anxiety attacks?

Oh, almost certainly.   All the anxiety stuff has gotten so much worse since I came down here, I hope it ends up being worth it.  And then the feelings I end up with BECAUSE of the increased anxiety attacks - of being a burden and nuisance and in the way and wondering why people are even bothering with me - just end up making more of the heart racing shit happen, and then it’s like this spiral from hell, it’s kind of terrible.  

I’ve done significantly worse since like 45 minutes ago when my friend came home and tried to invite me to something that’d I’d have to go without all the information I’d need to feel secure doing it, and now I just feel like she must think I’m a lazy loser, so my heart has just been fucking FULL SPEED AHEAD for at least that long, and I’m starting to have trouble breathing.  She keeps talking and I forget what she says five seconds later.